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Don't Paint Your Days So Gray

by Man in a Crowd

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1.
Where would you be If you woke up from sleep And had your whole life figured out? Wouldn’t it hurt you to find What you’d searched for your whole life Could be found in the blink of an eye? I think it would Yeah I think it would So hold on ‘Til the end of the road
2.
It was a cold one in Philly The winter dropped the storm off at my front door And it kept us in for weeks So you couldn’t leave And maybe that’s what scared me Yeah maybe that’s what told you to run Just as soon as the sun Thawed us up and out of here When you said, “Baby, honestly Just what the hell you want from me?” But I swear I didn’t know Any better than you do now And you said, “Take a breath, focus What should we both take from this?” ‘Cause I think I could have loved you But I just didn’t know how, no So you took the 9:10 AM Eastbound right out of town And you weren’t coming back You knew I lacked the cash To come chase you down across the bridge My car was still plowed in I put my head in my hands Knew I’d done it again in the end When you said, “Baby, honestly Just what the hell you want from me?” But I swear I didn’t know Any better than you do now And you said, “Take a breath, focus What should we both take from this?” ‘Cause I think I could have loved you But I just didn’t know how And should I figure it out I hope you’re still waiting around But I doubt that you will be ‘Cause the morning came quickly And the cold ripped right through us We were all out of wine Finally out of excuses And you said, “It’s so hard to see Or just feel what you think When you smile right though All the sad, sad songs that you sing So I said, “Baby, honestly I don’t think that I can be As real as you want Though I know you want it so much” And I said, “Step back, relax Let me sleep walk through all of this I’m stuck in some nightmare Where I can’t wake up” And you said, “Baby, honestly Just what the hell you want from me?” But I swear I didn’t know Any better than you do now And you said, “Take a breath, focus What should we both take from this?” ‘Cause I think I could have loved you But I just didn’t know how
3.
Stuck 03:32
It’s that chance you didn’t take It’s that smile you didn’t fake That got you stuck here for a while And it’s that game you didn’t play It’s those three words you couldn’t say That got you stuck here for a while So now you’re looking for meaning Does anyone else have this feeling? Wait Don’t you paint your days so gray Let the sunlight warm your face real soon Don’t let that winter gloom come over you Well it’s that city that took you Yeah it’s her words that shook you up And got you stuck here for a while And it’s that song that I couldn’t write It’s those three chords I still can’t find That got me stuck here for a while So now you’re searching for a sign Does anyone else feel alive? The rain Doesn’t have to wreck your day So just search for that embrace so tight It keeps you warm at night You’re never gonna find the answer And it won’t make you feel no better Stop wasting your time You’re only losing your mind Stop wasting your time Now the days and nights go slow without you I never quite felt whole without you And I was wrong about a lot of things Yeah I was wrong about everything
4.
I woke up feeling heavy on the hardwood floor Had to get myself up and out the door While the walls were closing in on the room So I took a little stroll down the Avenue Just tried to clear my mind of you I must have pissed away that whole afternoon ‘Til I spent my whole night getting lost in The Village Trying to get myself right while my head was spinning So I mixed in a little whiskey and sin In some Bleecker Street bar Mmm, mmm… I couldn’t get a cab so I just started walking I had a few smokes in my jacket pocket Watched that silver trail touch the sky And it hit 5 AM I was still wide-awake So I just hopped aboard some subway train Had my flask in hand, my bleary eyes I spent the whole damn night just circling the city Trying to drink myself blind or find some kind of meaning Pleading, “Am I alive or am I only dreaming In some hotel bedroom Somewhere up the interstate?” Been using all my time trying to reclaim Some mood or some feeling But what I really should be doing is getting out And making a new one You see, I wrote that song as many times, as many ways As could be written And I sung it out so often even my own friends stopped listening They stopped listening So I spent my whole night getting lost in The Village Trying to get myself right while my head was spinning So I mixed in a little whiskey and sin In some Bleecker Street bar And I drove myself crazy thinking about the past And all those different ways that I should’ve acted Finally got myself home and to bed at last I think I slept a couple hundred days Make a change or don’t complain Make a change Or don’t you, or don’t you complain
5.
I felt it from a window seat Of a westbound plane over Kansas City On that flight I took to get myself away from you When suddenly my hands went numb And my face turned red and my breath got heavy Prayed to that God that I’d been cursing – don’t let it happen again so soon Took one last sip of Scotch and kicked my shoes off Dimmed the lights and pulled the shades And just tried to get some rest What if I told you I would love you like the world was ending If you could only meet me on the other side tonight? And if this plane goes down in flames inside some field or ocean Just know the last thing on my mind was how I never loved you right I heard you date some author now He’s a damn good writer but don’t put you in his stories So I thought I’d write you just one more for old time’s sake Remember when you told me this town Was just like a magnet pulling us back here? I never thought that I’d run far enough or strong enough to break Hummed one last lonely melody as I drift to sleep Crossed my fingers and hoped dreaming Would carry me away Baby, I will turn this plane around And land it right outside your house And I will take you in my arms And never let you go again So if I fall right from the sky Now you will know exactly why As I whisper in your ear The things I never said… Never said…
6.
The sun was smiling down over Market Street It was my birthday And you were with me I was busy stressing out ‘Cause I knew this could not last Your bags were packed; your bus was in the station And so I held you tight Said, “Baby it’ll be all right You don’t have to worry About anything we did last night We were both drunk And you were on vacation” And everyone was laughing out loud at the party We were both stoned and playing the guitar When I caught your eye over some silly 90’s cover Let’s get the hell out of here, take it a little too far The rain was pissing down over Third Avenue It was October And I was with you You were busy stressing out ‘Cause you told yourself this was a one night Kind of thing And so you held me close Said, “I’ve got a funny feeling That this ain’t the best idea For either of us here” And I said, “Don’t worry, it’s not a big deal Kind of thing” And everyone was moving to the music on the club scene We were both bored, getting blitzed at the bar When you caught my eye over some shitty Top 40 Let’s split a cab out of here, take it a little too far And I’m sorry that I lied But that was the best night That I’ve ever had So now I’m sitting on my hands Trying not to call you Making all my plans To get out and see you Cleaning out my closet Trying to find a trace of you left in this place And I’m breaking all the laws That I set for myself When I said I’d never get caught Up in this kind of stuff But I’m so wrapped up I don’t believe myself I haven’t slept in weeks Just thinking about you now… The snow was falling down lightly on the house It was Christmas Eve I called you but you didn’t pick up I called you but you didn’t pick up I called you but you didn’t wake up
7.
I feel like the whole world’s gone crazy I feel it die a little more each day So I keep tensing up my body I get these headaches that won’t go away And every single time I think I’ve figured it out There’s a whole new set of problems that just keeps on dragging me down And I said that I could fix it but I don’t got a clue where to start Where we gonna start? I said I wasn’t worried but they’re breaking my hopeless heart Again I feel like we’re lost in our freedom Just because we can doesn’t mean we should But my warped little mind won’t stop racing I can’t find a way to slow it down And every single time I think I’m calming down I hear the voices on the T.V. and they’re stressing me out again So now we’ll take to the streets, man Gonna hit ‘em all with a wall of sound United we’ll stand with no message Unless it’s a little too much standing around Then the joke’s on you We’re gonna sink some time soon And there’s nothing we can do ‘Cause they’ve got less of an interest In fixing this than being right I can feel it, I can see it
8.
Wake Up 03:49
The snow fell on Halloween So we took to the streets And just for the evening no one could tell Who was real and who was kidding anymore The city never sleeps But I feel so tired lately I’ve been pinching myself for days Now I can’t stay awake And in this dream I keep having I just never seem to recover The storm’s coming in From the looks of it, it’s gonna be a bad one And the snow’s gonna stick Why don’t we stick it out ‘til the summer comes? Wake up, wake up What are you waiting for, my brother? Get yourself out of bed and put one foot In front of the other And things will get better now The sidewalks started to freeze So we took to the streets And just for the evening no one could blame us For slipping up the avenue We were too wired to sleep But I haven’t felt that way lately I’ve been dragging my feet for days Yeah I can’t stay awake And in this dream I keep having I just stay like this forever The cold’s coming in From the looks of it, it’s gonna be a long one And the wind’s gonna whip Why don’t we shake it out ‘til the summer comes? 'Cause how could it get any worse than it's been? For the last few months I've been living just like I am dead So here’s that hopeful song to sing when all you got is going wrong And I know it hurts like hell, but we’re gonna heal up, we’re gonna move on And here’s that hopeful song you know I’ve been working for years on When the wind’s gonna whip, we’ll just shake it out ‘til the summer comes It’s gonna come… Wake up, wake up now It’s gonna come right back around now
9.
Ellie 03:06
Ellie, I’m sorry I needed to be right It wasn’t worth the fight Now that I’m alone here Ellie, I’m sorry I couldn’t let it go It was the little things I know That brought me down here So I’m not looking for a second chance At some teenage romance I just need you to forgive me So that I can catch some sleep Ellie, I’m sorry I couldn’t walk away It was the stupid games I played That brought you down, love Ellie, I’m sorry I never could relax Or put you in the past Just know I wish I could have So I’m not looking for another shot By now I’ve had quite a lot I just need you to forgive me So that I can make my peace Wherever I go, I take a piece of you with me from home Whatever I do, I remember what you said to me “Don’t ever let that ground get too heavy underneath your feet” And if you taught me anything at all I guess it’s this: How to love with your whole heart And when it breaks, just how long it takes To fix
10.
You told me once, nothing’s gonna happen You told me twice, this is the last time So stop calling me at night And now I don’t know what I’m supposed to do without you ‘Cause nothing clears my mind out like you do I tried it once, didn’t think I’d like it I tried it twice, now I’m hooked on you But you mean nothing it’s true And now you don’t know what you’re supposed to do without this ‘Cause nothing digs as deeps as I once did But you’re just wasting all your time Picking up the phone when I call at night And it makes me feel bad ‘Cause I know I’m holding you back The truth is I know you’re not the one But I don’t got the guts for being alone So I’ll just keep on playing telephone And cutting you to the bone I keep cutting you to the bone I told you once, I’m sorry that I did it I told you twice, it’s never gonna happen again But I can’t bring it to an end You tried it once, didn’t think you’d fall in You tried it twice, now you’re in over your head Wishing this never got started And now you don’t know what you’re supposed to do with yourself ‘Cause nothing makes you feel how you once felt And one of these days we’re gonna cut to the chase We’ll pick up and head our separate ways And if I ever see your face again Girl, I hope that you’re smiling ‘Cause deep down I know I want what’s best for you But I’m not the man you should give that to I promise I’ll straighten out real soon But I won’t come crying No I won’t come crying Like I did before I’m sorry for lying ‘Til you can’t take anymore And I’m sorry I got drunk and wound up at your door What did you let me in for? What did you let me in for? I called you once, said baby I’ve been thinking I called you twice and said never mind you were right What were we thinking last night? And now I don’t know what I’m supposed to do without you ‘Cause nothing takes the edge off like you do
11.
I know everyone makes Their fair share of mistakes these days But lately I’ve doubling up my neighbors And not slowing down Wondering, why should they love? Why should they love me anyway? When all I do is complain About the weather when it rains When I can’t get out of bed or sleep in it either When all I do is piss and moan About traffic on these highway roads That I use as an excuse to keep from leaving Yeah I do I know everyone takes A few steps the wrong way these days But lately I’ve been walking miles at a time And not getting tired Wondering why should they love? Why should they love me anyway? When I write these songs when no one’s home How I can’t stand sleeping alone But I don’t like to share my bed with anyone And I’ve been known to whine from time to time On deathly silent Friday nights But I need my peace and quiet just like anyone I speak before I think I know that all my nonchalance is just some bad act And I speak before I think I know that all of my opinions should be facts But they laugh When I want to act like I don’t give a shit ‘Cause I can’t relax not for a minute Gonna suffocate myself with all my worrying I said I’m bored to fly, let’s drive across But they know I can’t stand getting lost Gonna leave myself behind with all my hurrying Oh yeah
12.
Tides 03:45
Quick just think of something ‘Cause everybody’s asking where you’ve been But what’s the point in talking When it all just ends right back where it began? And I feel all these eyes on me now And I know I’m due to let you down But they say, “Wait for your moment The days may be slow But all these things go Through their motions The tides will turn in time We know they will We know they will” If I keep on asking questions I might never find those answers that I want ‘Cause I’ve seen life is just a contest Who can learn the fastest to live with what they’ve got? And I think all these dreams are gonna take me down You can fall in line or just get out Besides, where would you be If you woke up from sleep And had your whole life figured out? Wouldn’t it hurt you to find What you’d searched for your whole life Could be found in the blink of an eye? I think it would Yeah I think it would So hold on ‘til the end of the road And they say, “Wait for your moment The days may be slow But all these things go Through their motions The tides will turn in time The knots will all unwind The sun will melt the ice The days will turn to nights We know they will

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Written: December 2010 - May 2012 in New York City and Monroe, CT.

Recorded: June - September 2012 at The Record Co. in Boston, Greenpoint Recording Company in Brooklyn, Phase One Studios in Manhattan, and Virtue & Vice Studios in Brooklyn.

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released October 23, 2012

Produced, mixed, and engineered by Peter Recine.

Mastered by Jasper McClintock at Be Funky, Be Real Studios

All songs by Man in a Crowd

Lyrics by Matt Talmage

Artwork by Rob Fleming

Matt Talmage - lead vocals, acoustic guitars
Chad Elrod - drums, percussion
Dan Semenza - piano, organ, keyboards
Ian Tait - bass guitar
Meghan Riley - vocals
Peter Recine - electric guitar, lap steel, vocals

Additional vocals on tracks 4 and 7 by Emily Fromm & Kira Novak.
Additional vocals on track 10 by Brendan Puskar.

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